Showing posts with label my grandmother Esther. Show all posts
Showing posts with label my grandmother Esther. Show all posts

Wednesday, August 1, 2018

FAMILY MATTERS


It is 1890; my grandmother Esther is one year old
And Max, whom she will someday marry,
Is two -- twice her age; it is obvious
They’ll never suit each other. Her mother
Is alive or dead. She anxiously asks me
Which but I don't know; after consideration
I allow my great grandmother more time
To walk the broad streets of Lvov and to look
At the river about which her daughter will dream
When she’s thousands of miles away.
Irina, Esther's sister, is already born
Or perhaps not. There may be other children;
I'll lodge them in
Paris until I discover
Whether they existed. If they did,
I'll bring them home. If they didn't, at least
They'll have had some very good meals
And the consolation of speaking French
With Parisian grace and assurance.

Tuesday, June 19, 2018

RIVER


My grandmother once, only once, mentioned to my father
That she used to dance by the river with other children.
He was astonished. A song was playing on the radio
The very music to which she'd danced when radios
Had not been invented. How little I know of her! She made
Noodles from scratch; she wanted three but had nine children
With a man she didn't much like. She learned English
By studying her children's schoolbooks. Her dreams
Mostly took place back in
Lvov. Before her marriage
She worked in a cigarette factory; I don't know
What the brand was called. She  spoke Yiddish
And Polish and German and English; she also 
Could get by in Russian and Ukranian.
She disliked hearing the Emperor Franz-Joseph mocked.
She'd stay awake late, reading. She might keep a newspaper
For forty years, waiting for the time to finish it
Her son Morris died when he was twelve. She never
Spoke about him after she sat shivah. I like to think
He turned up now and again in her dreams wandering
Through the broad streets of
Lvov with her or dancing
Down by the river.

Friday, December 29, 2017

IN LEMBERG



When she slept in Brooklyn, her rest scant and uneasy,
My grandmother Esther walked the streets of Lemberg. There,
In 1922, she met Joseph Conrad. Not the version who still
Walked in daylight but the one who'd taken
His uncle Tadeusz' advice to forget the sea
And go to the famed
University of Lemberg.
He'd become a lawyer and married a Magyar flautist
Who died on a cold February afternoon
At
4:35; he'd written down the exact time
And always kept the note in his wallet.
As he aged he became unhappy at being unreal
He'd sleep for weeks then walk through dreams
Desperate for food and a bit of company.
Through two years -- he and his other both died
In 1924 -- she read him Yiddish translations of his works.
Their favorite was always Nostromo;
They wept together over the fate of Martin Decoud.

Monday, August 28, 2017

ALONG



That Tonto spoke Yiddish was no surprise;
From listening with her youngest to episodes
Of The Lone Ranger my grandmother knew
That Tonto could do almost anything.
After she died, he’d clattered up
To offer her a ride on Scout. They chatted;
Tonto, it turned out, was an orphan too.
He'd never seen Lemberg but had heard
That its streets were wide and that
The second oldest fish in the world
Lived in the waters of the Poltowa.

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

DESCENT



Esther was named
After her grandmother
Who was named after an aunt
Who bore the name
Of a half-sister who carried
Her own mother's name
For three days and a half.
The progression
Is long, not endless.
You can trace this line
Back and back and back
Until you are in Babylon
With Ishtar, the lion-rider
Who made an angry trip
To Hell and came back
Still angry but without
Any clothes.

Tuesday, March 28, 2017

THE EMPEROR COMES TO SNEDIKER AVENUE



My grandfather Max disliked emperors
On principle. Still, if Franz Joseph
Suddenly appeared on
Snediker Avenue,
Running for his life from his enemies,
Max would surely offer him shelter.
He might -- but only might -- tell his wife
That the Emperor was in their kitchen
Eating a large apple. It's possible
Max would think it better to let Esther
Find the Emperor herself  rather
Than having a discussion on how unlikely
A man so old and habit-bound
Had slipped off his throne and turned up,
Hapsburg jaw and all, in
Brooklyn.

Tuesday, October 4, 2016

SUM




Fourscore and ten years ago my grandmother
Brought forth on this continent a new baby
Who’d have been called Naftali Meyer
In Lvov but here was Nathan Martin
And married my mother
And flew with angels
And talked with cats
And earned a death
More gentle,
More kind.

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

ESCORT



Her youngest son had, with the best will in the world,
Made her listen to The Lone Ranger five times a week
For six years, so my grandmother Esther recognized
The spirit come to escort her to the next world.
It was Tonto. He was riding Scout, who nodded to her.
She had always suspected Scout was a nicer horse
Than the high-strung Silver, who got all the attention.
Tonto, she knew, spoke every Indian language,
As well as English and some Spanish, so when he smiled
And said bakumen aoyf, Fraulein, she did not gasp
Or ask him where he had learned to speak Yiddish
With a strong Galician lilt, but got up behind
And settled herself to ride through the Badlands.

Monday, May 23, 2016

FAITHFUL INDIAN COMPANION



The Lone Ranger, my grandmother said, was a show-off;
Catch Tonto naming his horse Silver! No, Tonto
Rode Scout, an unobtrusive paint, patient and durable.
Unlike Silver, Scout never needed to be rescued
From an enraged buffalo ("and why was the buffalo mad?
Silver probably said something to insult him.")
My father, 11, who listened in the kitchen
Almost every day, decided he'd know he was old
When he woke up preferring Tonto.

Thursday, March 10, 2016

WAITING



My father's late for the rehearsal
So this poem's supporting cast -- a banshee,
Two cats, my grandmother, most
Of the 1939 Dodgers, Sts. Brigid and Jerome,
Jerome's lion and Hans Castorp --
Amuse themselves as best they can
Crowded into my grandmother's kitchen.
(It is
3 a.m., but she would've been awake
Even if I hadn't sent this crowd along)
The banshee tells a very involved joke
At which only my grandmother laughs
The cats debate proper ways to greet
The ghost of the last Ming Emperor
Who is said to be travelling with my father.
There is a noise outside, but it is only
Castor Oyl and J. Wellington Wimpy,
Players from Thimble Theater, hoping
For some work as extras in the poem.
The banshee is starting another joke:
"Nat Silver, the ghost of an emperor
And Li
Po's shadow walk into a bar ..."

Friday, February 19, 2016

A CUP OF TEA



While everyone else in that large family slept
My father would be awake in the attic
Studying perhaps, or writing imperishable things
Which have perished. After her hard day's work,
His mother would read old newspapers
In the kitchen. (She got full value from her papers
Never letting one go until she had read it all
The news, the ads, the serialized novel,
Advice, recipes and those strange short bits
Compositors used to make the columns even.)
A few hours before dawn she would go upstairs
And bring him some tea and perhaps a cookie.
Did she bring a cup for herself sometimes?
And what did they discuss, those nachtvolk?

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

MEETING THE EMPEROR



One day in her home town my grandmother Esther
Saw the ghost of the Emperor. This surprised her;
Franz Joseph was alive and even if he wasn’t,
Why would he be selling used clothes in Lemberg?
Still, she had no doubt. This was the face she’d seen
On stamps and coins, in schools and post offices.
She had always a soft spot for the Emperor;
And many decades later, in far-off Brooklyn,
Deemed herself still a reasonably loyal subject.
Her husband could, if he wanted – and he did –
Vote for Roosevelt but she, having grown up
With a monarch, considered a president
To be something inconsiderable. Franz Joseph
Did not roam about asking people to elect him.

Esther was 15 that day in the market with no intent
Of ever leaving Lemberg. Sometimes in her dreams
She flew, but when she looked down, saw the Poltowa,
Its bridges filled with statues which craned their necks
To see her flying by, waving at them.
(Her ninth child, my father,  also flew in his sleep
But I don’t know if he ever saw the Poltowa.)
Brave, she walked up to the Emperor
Who was extolling a pair of almost new pants
To a skeptical buyer, stretching the cloth
In his semitransparent hands. He gave her a smile
Behind his enormous mustache. How we have dwindled!
I cannot talk to dogs; I cannot fly in dreams
The closest I’ve been to an emperor is not very close
Though Dwight Eisenhower walked into my mother,
Knocking her down, three months before I was born.


Monday, February 1, 2016

BY REQUEST



When my grandmother died her ghost
Lingered for a few weeks to finish reading
Some of the decades-old newspapers
She had stored in the basement.
It was 1977, but she wanted to finish
Some serialized novels and be sure
That the Siege of
Stalingrad was over
And the Allies had still won World War II
Leaving her free to revisit her real home
In the debatable lands of middle
Europe.

Friday, August 28, 2015

A LEMBERGOISE



My grandmother Esther was from Lemberg
Also called
Lvov, Lwow, Lviv and Leopolis.
When there was a kingdom called
Ruthenia,
Its king lived there. Karaites drifted in
From Byzantium. It had  -- still has -- broad streets
Leading to an opera house, so my grandmother
When she was a teenager making cigarettes
With other factory girls may have gone
To see Carmen, which is also about a girl
Who makes cigarettes. Due to
Lvov's shortage
Of Escamillos, or even Don Joses, she married Max,
A very nice man. Over time, mild affection for him
Blossomed into serene and settled dislike.
Had they stayed they likely would have died
Along with almost all the other of the towns’Jews.
She deemed
New York no substitute for Lemberg.
The moon over the
Hudson River was never
A match for the one whose white double
Swam through Poltowa’s broken willows.

Thursday, March 26, 2015

A BIT OF FAMILY HISTORY



My grandfather Max was quite religious
Until he got married, my aunts tell me.
My grandmother, though, had her doubts.
At some point her doubts apparently decided.
They actually liked him very much better
And began following him about everywhere.
At the very height of the busy season
Max would have to work almost without stop
He and the other tailors would snatch brief naps
On the long cutting tables.  While he slept
His wife's doubts purred quietly on his chest.
Deserted by her doubts, Esther, my grandmother,
Bitterly decided to keep the most kosher kitchen
On all of
Snediker Avenue. It got to the point
That rabbis sometimes called to consult her
On abstruse points of dietary law.

Friday, January 2, 2015

REASONS



When she was in her teens
My father's mother Esther
Worked in a cigarette factory.
True, hers was in
Lvov, a city
Which, depending on the weather
Was Polish or Austro-Hungarian
Or even Ukrainian, but not Spanish.
Nor, I am fairly certain, did she
Have affairs with bullfighters
Or get sprung from jail by Don Jose.
She sometimes danced by the river
But probably not with gypsies.
For these reasons, and others,
Including Bizet's decision to die
Ten years or so before her birth,
There is no opera about her.