After years of threats and promises my better self
Has found at last someone else to be better than.
This has, of course, required considerable paperwork
And an administrative restructuring. For now,
I am myself only on nights and weekends
While working -- provisionally -- from my better self's office
(He left his file cabinets locked but my worse self
Opened them with a paper clip.)
To the maid Mary Rocke he left
Stocks, some cash, an annuity
All his shirts, two nightgowns,
His lace ruffs, a snuffbox
With his dear wife's picture on it
And his gold dumb repeater watch.
(A dumb repeater keeps time
Just as well as those that speak;
It simply doesn't brag about it.)
I am a note in the middle --
I think I'm in the middle --
Of a very long notebook. The author
Wrote me down meaning, I'm sure,
To return and work me into a poem
But he never has. I blame his habit
Of writing in no order so page 17
May be written after page 206. Also,
He often writes in the dark. I am,
I'd say, quite a good idea. If you know
The author tell him he could do worse
Than look again at page 551
Of Notebook 46B, about halfway down.
When she's six blocks away
The windows begin to shudder in their frames.
When she's five blocks away
Every towel in the linen closet refolds itself.
When she's four blocks off
The credit cards in your wallet cancel themselves.
Three blocks? Your inherited silverware
Now has strangers' initials deep-etched in.
Two blocks; there's no time to find a new reflection;
You must comb your hair and shave without one.
When she's one block away, all the doors in your house
Unlock, then lock and then unlock themselves again.
Anne Damer, sculptor, stands on the roof
Of Richard Cosway's house, watching
The Opera House burn; her left arm
Rests on a concrete sphere, gilded
To lool like the Sun; her right hand touches
A statue of Minerva which will speak
If it's in the mood and finds you attractive.
A spark flying across Suffolk Street
Lands in her hand leaving a scar
In the shape of bird in flight. Years later,
Dying, she'll write a will directing
She be buried with a mallet, the bones
Of her favorite dog, an apron
And a selection of new-sharpened chisels.
Most of the stray shadows in this town --
Never claimed or lost or on the run from enemies --
Drift in time to the scrap yard where the disjoindered pieces
Of the Third Avenue El's shadow were hauled in 1956
Along with the bent and battered shadows of conductors,
Engineers, passengers, token sellers and pigeons.
When funds are available, everything
Will be soldered back together and the men and birds
Will board, no matter where it's going, the first train to rumble in.
